Frog Empire For Lost Souls

Holding her hand. Still feel myself so lonely in this world of matter. I met so great people here in Berlin — it definitely feels like new wonderful beginning. Oh Gods, I was alone so long time… I was alone, I was in my dreams catching ghosts. Last days I am not. Yes, I just…

National things and dreams ov dreadlocks

Well, another day here in Berlin. I try to be optimistic, things turn better as it seems. Most of formalities seem to be done and situation is less chaotic now. Early in the morning they took us to BAMF by bus, now I am waiting for registration and interviews. Well, actually they do not call…

There was one hangar, somewhere in Berlin

So, they offer me to change my legal name once more? Seems funny. No, not now, I guess. Oder? Why not? Tell me the only reason why I shouldn’t? Huh. There is still time for decision, anyway. Do not consider me crazy, please. No, all is ok. One dear soul who was probably someone who…

Sweet Dreams / True Love

All friends and allies — people ask me about marriage and relationships and things… Great question, actually. I have had relationships of different kind in the past. “Said we would love forever — we lied of course…” — as Tony Wakeford sings. Yes, isn’t it always like this? No. We project our own dreams on…

Let Them Pay!

Yes, I was through it. Risperidone, psychosis, ornaments lovely. Walking through the fields, canteen in mental hospital, art therapy. Not like it was in medieval ages, right? Not at all. Much better and friendly. Yes, today European institutions must try to respect you — even if not everywhere. They even have nutrition therapist and provided…

Sleepless night and tick-tock noises

One night I spent here laying on the floor in my lovely sleeping bag that once I got from one American spiritual friend of mine. I am still inside, actually. 4:04 AM — I take a look at Handy… strange night. Last day I did Cola zero to experience that psychosis-like state of mind again…

Queer is Infinity

Logic is lie. Never stop madness. Queer is Infinity. They give lands for free there in the East. Should we take some? I play life. No one wins and no one loses. It’s good actually that I am here. One of my dreams to become reality, finally. Yes, I lost something in Europe — as…

Summer Solstice Revelations

Waking up here, at this very special moment of year circle. Last days I sleep on the floor in my sleeping bag here in the flat in Twangste. Having thoughts of India again, Jain way… tired of civilization! Well, I am about to leave that material possessions of mine, part of that flat I used…

Oh that days in Twangste!

One Sunday morning I woke up on dacha near the seashore of Baltic lands, not so far from Twangste place. It was one of that mornings here while I was staying on the coast for healing purposes and some paperwork reasons. So, now I got Lian Wu name officially in birth certificate documents. I’ve already…