Sleepless night and tick-tock noises

One night I spent here laying on the floor in my lovely sleeping bag that once I got from one American spiritual friend of mine. I am still inside, actually. 4:04 AM — I take a look at Handy… strange night. Last day I did Cola zero to experience that psychosis-like state of mind again…

Queer is Infinity

Logic is lie. Never stop madness. Queer is Infinity. They give lands for free there in the East. Should we take some? I play life. No one wins and no one loses. It’s good actually that I am here. One of my dreams to become reality, finally. Yes, I lost something in Europe — as…

Summer Solstice Revelations

Waking up here, at this very special moment of year circle. Last days I sleep on the floor in my sleeping bag here in the flat in Twangste. Having thoughts of India again, Jain way… tired of civilization! Well, I am about to leave that material possessions of mine, part of that flat I used…

Oh that days in Twangste!

One Sunday morning I woke up on dacha near the seashore of Baltic lands, not so far from Twangste place. It was one of that mornings here while I was staying on the coast for healing purposes and some paperwork reasons. So, now I got Lian Wu name officially in birth certificate documents. I’ve already…

Ragnarok

  Runes are that signs What we carve on the stones To touch, to embrace The powers Divine. Odin who guides Us through the visions of worlds — One day you will face Those standing in line… His Valkyries dancing, His warriors waiting. Observing one dead thing — The Giants are melting. No way to…

Go on

  Looking for some treasures — Not that gold what runs through fingers. Build up Utopias together Or just jump out of the windows… The winds bring smell of freedom, Well — do not sign goddamned contracts. The way calls to the South — No force will ever block us. Go on, go on —…

Returning back to Königsberg…

Well… I am here. In Königsberg — my hometown. Processing memories and feelings, falling down to rise again one day. It feels sometimes that I desperately need someone to walk on the paths less traveled together. Life in society is still hard and drags me down. There are some things to fix here with my…

Notes from the Bardo of life

Day by day, time goes slowly in psychiatric hospital for Bodhisattvas. Lack of motions is what drags me down — oh, I wish to become free again. Impossible now. Well, I can go immediately — but this way will lead me to some unwanted consequences. It’s even comfortable to be here for this piece of…

Autumnal Equinox

Autumnal Equinox meets me here in psychiatric clinic for Bodhisattvas. Time goes by, the walls are wide and well, that’s nice refuge against wind and rain. Nice place for my experiments, but… what I actually do not like, that fact that I should take pills, even if it’s mild drug for treatment of schizophrenia and…