Frog Empire For Lost Souls

Holding her hand. Still feel myself so lonely in this world of matter. I met so great people here in Berlin — it definitely feels like new wonderful beginning. Oh Gods, I was alone so long time… I was alone, I was in my dreams catching ghosts. Last days I am not. Yes, I just…

National things and dreams ov dreadlocks

Well, another day here in Berlin. I try to be optimistic, things turn better as it seems. Most of formalities seem to be done and situation is less chaotic now. Early in the morning they took us to BAMF by bus, now I am waiting for registration and interviews. Well, actually they do not call…

There was one hangar, somewhere in Berlin

So, they offer me to change my legal name once more? Seems funny. No, not now, I guess. Oder? Why not? Tell me the only reason why I shouldn’t? Huh. There is still time for decision, anyway. Do not consider me crazy, please. No, all is ok. One dear soul who was probably someone who…

Summer Solstice Revelations

Waking up here, at this very special moment of year circle. Last days I sleep on the floor in my sleeping bag here in the flat in Twangste. Having thoughts of India again, Jain way… tired of civilization! Well, I am about to leave that material possessions of mine, part of that flat I used…

The woods and the clouds…

During school days, I have had some special places in my world, that were chosen for meditation on nature side, for rituals, as well as for celebration of that sacred points in Solar Year Circle — Equinoxes and Solstices. I wish to confess for setting them on fire. I would like to confess for burning…

First memories from childhood…

I remember myself walking down the street with some tiny little rocks under my feet. I ask my father about some construction elements what were on the yard for reasons of repairing water supply system underground — I asked him, where do they come from. “They grow up, as mushrooms do” — that was the…

Psychiatric Clinic For Bodhisattvas

I am so happy to talk about all that stuff to psychiatrist, after all. That years… experiments with psychoactive substances, broken relationship, internal conflicts, hard life that I go through… but I am still so closed, so stone-hearted — I locked myself from external emotions to hide, for protection, to take a refuge. Eternal escapism?…