Let Them Pay!

Yes, I was through it. Risperidone, psychosis, ornaments lovely. Walking through the fields, canteen in mental hospital, art therapy. Not like it was in medieval ages, right? Not at all. Much better and friendly. Yes, today European institutions must try to respect you — even if not everywhere. They even have nutrition therapist and provided…

Notes from the Bardo of life

Day by day, time goes slowly in psychiatric hospital for Bodhisattvas. Lack of motions is what drags me down — oh, I wish to become free again. Impossible now. Well, I can go immediately — but this way will lead me to some unwanted consequences. It’s even comfortable to be here for this piece of…

Relocation and life in mental hospital

Yesterday they moved me to another building in complex. Hospital is the biggest one here in Czechia, it’s famous for experiments with LSD what did take their place in 60s, when Stanislav Grof was here. Later, as we know, he invented holotropic breathing method (what replaces using of psychedelics) and emigrated to United States of…

Psychiatric Clinic For Bodhisattvas

I am so happy to talk about all that stuff to psychiatrist, after all. That years… experiments with psychoactive substances, broken relationship, internal conflicts, hard life that I go through… but I am still so closed, so stone-hearted — I locked myself from external emotions to hide, for protection, to take a refuge. Eternal escapism?…

Psychiatry is not salvation, Satori is the only answer.

Welcome your schizophrenic Bodhisattvas! Buddha is dead, burn the light in your oven with scrolls of Lotus Sutra. Monks smoke hashish, Temple is done, there is no salvation. Doctor in white robe will come to take your blood — but does it help? Has it something to do with Immortality? Do you call yourself Immortalist…