Notes from the Bardo of life

Day by day, time goes slowly in psychiatric hospital for Bodhisattvas. Lack of motions is what drags me down — oh, I wish to become free again. Impossible now. Well, I can go immediately — but this way will lead me to some unwanted consequences. It’s even comfortable to be here for this piece of…

The woods and the clouds…

During school days, I have had some special places in my world, that were chosen for meditation on nature side, for rituals, as well as for celebration of that sacred points in Solar Year Circle — Equinoxes and Solstices. I wish to confess for setting them on fire. I would like to confess for burning…

Relocation and life in mental hospital

Yesterday they moved me to another building in complex. Hospital is the biggest one here in Czechia, it’s famous for experiments with LSD what did take their place in 60s, when Stanislav Grof was here. Later, as we know, he invented holotropic breathing method (what replaces using of psychedelics) and emigrated to United States of…

That paths what lead us through the woods.

When I was about ten years old, I discovered for myself (or just remembered — as we know everything and access any sources of information through our Inner Eye and Ears) northern Runes. Sacred symbols what shamans (northern shamanism is known as Seiðr) carved on wood, stones, their own and others’ bodies — they keep…

Psychiatry is not salvation, Satori is the only answer.

Welcome your schizophrenic Bodhisattvas! Buddha is dead, burn the light in your oven with scrolls of Lotus Sutra. Monks smoke hashish, Temple is done, there is no salvation. Doctor in white robe will come to take your blood — but does it help? Has it something to do with Immortality? Do you call yourself Immortalist…

Samadhi Trance at your workplace

Hm, first time when I achieved silence of internal monologue (mental chatter) — it happened when I was 16, at my job. Fast food chain, we cooked pancakes with different fillings inside. I remember, in the beginning I worked hard with overworking hours, later there were less… but, one month I combined this job with…

When Divine is calling for you… Temple goes offline!

Today my tablet computer was broken, what may be a sign to focus on other things around. Without quick access to e-mail, internet, maps and camera life seems to have another taste. Is it so inconvenient or we may talk about deliberation? Who knows. Well, these my days here are busy with regular job, so…

Prague Pride and Dreams of Communes!

Summer brings hot festival to Prague, an event what’s purpose is to call for equality between binary and genderqueer folks, to avoid discrimination and get our human rights back. A lot has been done in this field, with support from governmental projects from United States and European Union, but in reality queer folks struggle here,…

Blood on the streets of Prague

Just got €12 for 785 ml of my blood plasma, welcome to Eastern Europe guys 😀 Well, at least they did not recognize that I sleep in the park — so it means I do not stink too much still 😀 So I bought a lock with keys as it is required for my new…